feeling so sick n emo today.. lol.. everythin seems so wrong today...

early morning late for work.. reached office like 8.15am and was raining..

then was doing gebiz when adrian called and asked mi do urgent quote.. then ivn came over and asked mi n jac over to mary's table for a short meeting.. further details i wont wan to blog bout it coz i tink its so bloody lame.. i duno if is it that my frequence is different from others or wat.. lame~

sidetrack abit..

i seriously tink i cant tolerate ppl who love acting.. i m beginning to hate ppl with "2 faces".. seen too many of these faces since last week.. the feeling sucks though.. at times, i dont understand y is it so that ppl can juz simply ignore their heart and mind and starts to act out like another person or pattern.. kind of scary eh? but i noe tis is life.. when i grow older n older, i realised that nothin in this world is perfect and all gd things in this world wil come to an end.. and lotsa ppl wil start coming into ur life and leavin ur life as fast as how they came in.. kind of sad eh? i guess so too.. i admit i do act too.. like how i treat customers when they r lame.. i wil juz smile n laugh with them and nxt min when i turn my head my face goes straight again..

kind of pathetic eh.. duno whether is it that i in entertaining line long enough for mi to pick up this bad habit.. ytd was so lame when a staff from mediacorp came n drank in Rowell.. then he start joking ard with mi.. didnt feel reali confortable coz i wasnt in the best mood last night due to rushing here n there, this and that.. then when his fren start getting crappy, it gets on my nerve that when i m at their table, i was like smiling n smiling at them coz they r crapping.. nxt min when i turn my back, the smile vanish.. i tink W noticed it and asked if is there anythin wrong~

to tink of it, it has been like 2 yrs when i haven reali have a gd n long laugh.. not those laugh for less than 2 sec one la.. is those LOL!! and i tink it has been like 3 yrs i haven had a gd cry also.. at times feel that i m a wax figure with no expressions!! its so dreadful..

hope that i can get those "emos" back soon and say gd bye to grouchy face~
shall blog again when i feel like it.. kind of stress out now!!

2:33 PM

nua-ing at work after lunch thus decided to blog abit b4 continue doing my work for the day..

btw, i got reprimanded by derrick coz of leonard and adrian and twl got reprimanded by derrick coz of mi.. lol.. life goes round n round eh? lol!!

i forgot to send out mail to inform them bout the panasonic course supposingly starting today.. last night derrick called them to check the attendance and i tink he tot i got send out the mail and he kind of say that they nvr check mail or something like dat la.. anyway, i got said coz leonard gave mi a last min quote and wants it to b done immediately ytd and i sort of yaya with him though he said "PLS" ... lol.. dat was meant to b a joke to kp him la.. i tink boss arent on same frequency as mi la.. so he tot i diao qi lai mai when leonard di shen xia qi!

anyway, work is alright as a total lo.. except for some problems that i also lan de blog here la.. coz kind of pointless to blog here and nothin can b solved and i wil b mre angry with the matters..

however, at rowell, tons of things happened.. was told last night though.. shareholders arent responsible, shareholders arent firm and lotsa internal thing happen.. W told mi he want to get out of this business.. coz he tink kind of pointless la.. i feel the same as the treatment there arent acceptable la.. kind of hard lo.. the "party girl" on sat offended some customers and in the end, it was W and mi goin all out to entertain customers with "her" sitting there crapping.. in the end, "she" got drunk la.. S wasnt v happy bout it.. i tink S also abit off la.. u wan things ur way.. but u muz also consider bout the consequences ma.. right? anyway, cant b bothered to care bout wat is happening there.. i get whatever i shd get and i wil juz do whatever is needed..

things arent going well for mi and BB.. i tink, its time to reconsider everythin again.. its not bcoz of any external factors that happened.. its juz the things he do that makes mi feel that actually i arent needed in his life~

i seriously need some help!! i m getting quite lost with the things i need and want~

2:07 PM

was so tired last night that when i reach home, i jitao concuss til today morning 6am.. LOL.. so long nvr slp til so shiok liao!

feeling so fresh today! but as the time come nearer for mi to come work, i jitao mre n mre no mood.. anyway, ytd was a happy day for mi la.. lol..

reached work place at 7.45.. after 4 mths.. tis e first time i come work after so long.. actually i reach home 6 plus la.. coz slept at pub!! lol.. rain too big.. cant go home.. then was at there talking with "W" and finally at 4 plus 5 then concuss on the pool table..

yeh.. POOL table.. was too tired to care bout image anyway.. anyway, reach home change le came work immediately as W was downstairs waiting la.. i tink he also super tired le.. when i come down, he was sleepin in the car! lol.. on the way to work was silence in the car and no one speak though.. except for mi passing him a sweet la.. scare he fall aslp and there goes my life!

lotsa questions came popping by in my mind.. v puzzled and didnt noe the ans to it.. its those "what if " questions.. lol..

what if one day, u fall in love with a married man?
what if one day, u caught ur bf or hubby having an affair outside?
what if one day, u got preg and the father of the child already got kids?
what if one day, there arent anyone who bothers bout u?
what if one day, everyone ard u has changed?

so many what if.. lol.. i also dont understand y all these questions came into my mind.. i tink bcoz i saw too many couples breaking up and too many married couples divorce.. its kind of disheartening lo.. but i noe yuan fen yi jin.. no point dwelling la.. at tis point, i suddenly have the urge not to get married!

i told my mum a few mths back.. if i reach 30 and haven get married, i wil juz get any guy to make mi pregnant.. then i wil b a single mummy.. then she wil have grandson.. i tink i can support a child la.. duno whether tis mentality wil change when i get older anot.. hmmm.. i m wondering~

9:31 AM

feeling so shiok now!

last night was the lamest night that i ever had! saw someone who arent at fault opening 12 bottles of martell as "compensation" and it cost over 1.6k.. dun understand y this type of thing can happen!! also saw the lamest mother in the world who actually intro her own DAUGHTER go work as girl!! knn one..

it happens like tis.. this mother who is call Apple, was super buay song as her daughter was rape by ppl la.. coz her daughter went 97 after work and the papa san went 97 too.. after that, when the papa san was bout to go, he asked the girl to go off too.. then this stupid girl who was juz simply too jian insist that she doesnt wan to go and she noes the guy there whom she was with.. after that, the papa san drag her take cab but she juz refused to board the cab! after that, she went back to 97 to look for that guy.. her last recall was that she went to eat with that guy at geylang... but when she woke up in the morning, she discover that she was in a hotel room and her valuable belongings are gone and also she was raped!

the fucking mother juz blame it all on the papa san coz she tinks the papa san nvr look after her daughter lo.. then knn make a scene and wan find the papa san problem.. so ytd, there was a talk there at rowell la.. i also dont understand y the papa san need to open 12 bottles to apologise!!juz fucking simply dont understand la.. the damn mother stil can shiok shiok walk in and say all 12 bottles put her name! i jitao pissed! pls la.. ur daughter kena raped le.. u as a mother jitao no kick? u as a mother jitao cannot make it la.. it was U who intro ur daugher to b a girl one le.. u cant take care of her and u expect ppl to take care ur daughter for u? what is this world coming to b?

in short, i juz tink u arent a gd mother and u r juz a bitch by kpkb in the pub machiam like whole world owe u de... u tink u got backing v power is it? u tink u got ppl to lean against u v proud is it? kaoz! dont tel mi these shit la.. craps!!!

cant stand such ppl! shall b back to blog later as my mind is stil in sleeping mode! slept like 2 hrs in pub and came to work after goin home change!!

8:05 AM

ytd was talkin to a fren regarding her fren.. after tinking bout it last night, seems like i m super bad to give her suggestions.. i guess i shdnt have give any suggestion as to what i would do if i were her.. lol.. anyway, i tink i got to plan for resolution nxt yr liao.. 1st in the list would b not to bother bout ppl's business anymre.. it gets me no where..

ytd bb's sister n bro in law beat bryan due to his mischevious ways of demanding for wat he wans.. and though i tink he deserve to b cane, but after seeing him cry til so jialat n nobody resue him, i decided to b a heroine.. LOL!!! jitao grab the cane n go back my room lock door.. in the end, i guess she quite heart pain la.. take ointment and apply on her son's arm.. lol.. c.. heng i go save bryan la.. if not, i tink u go home sure cry right? lol..

then went rowell.. ended the night at 1 plus with a heavy heart.. ** dont u noe that a lie wil lead to many lies? i dont c a reason y shd u even tink of lying bout her.. i arnet smart.. however, i arent a dumb ass already? dont tink u keep quiet and siam the topic then everythings ok.. its not ok? **anyway, reach home and slept at 2.30am..

woke up late tis morning.. lol.. didnt hear my alarm ring at all till shir msg mi telling mi she reach MRT station.. its already 7.20am already.. msged boss telling him i wanna take timeoff for 2hrs.. in the end, change to 1 hr coz by the time he reply mi, i was already preparing to go to work.. heng no need cab to work.. :) when i reach office, he asked if i work at night.. lol.. duno wat he noe la.. but juz deny everythin la.. coz.. i dont c a reason explaining and i dont c a reason not using time off when my OTs cant b claim! lol.. i m calculative la.. bo bian~

shall b back to blog later.. tons of filing to b done.. ciao~

11:57 AM

5:24 PM

has been going into nuffnang and adverlet these few days to do somethin on the ads.. seriously, i tink its an easy way to earn some money effortlessly..bloggin can earn money lo.. though not like how xiaxue is doing la.. shaking leg and can get money to spend.. lol.. kind of envy her at times..

anyway, was listening to 3 songs recently.. 2 r old songs n 1 is quite new la.. like of nice and i got e feeling of k-ing songs again.. anyone wan join mi?? lol.. can de-stress at e same time eh?? lol.. anyway, k box is having promotion on 14-18th Oct.. i tink is for the 5th anniversary.. so its onli like 5 bucks for one pax though its for one drink nia.. however, housedrinks n standard drink is onli 5 bucks too.. so its kind of worth it.. so ppl, wanna go k muz make reservation.. this promotion is not available in Lot 1's branch onli.. i guess the business there in that branch is gd.. so they arent having the promotion there..

rowell pub will b having their GRAND opening tonight!! so excited.. last sat went there to help san and wee.. not much customers except their frenz la.. its quite a relaxing pub though.. i tink temporary no ktv session as they have limited manpower.. so ppl, anyone wanna work in pub? there is no need to drink if u dun wan to.. no one can force u unless u wanna drink.. there arent any need to pass mic as ktv system arent up yet.. and transport home is available in selected areas.. anyway, i b going down today tomolo and day after to help out la.. address is 105 rowell road.. its a pub for ppl to chill out with frenz and chitting.. free drop by alright? can call mi to make reservations.. :)

as for work, things arent goin smoothly for mi:( kind of stressful with those "laws" made.. its dbl job and dbl standard!! kind of hard to accept it at the moment.. salesman are havin hiccups in their projects and i couldnt do anythin except facing their black face.. its kind of hard.. at times, wanted to tender to escape from all these " treatments".. i m wondering.. wat can i do? mary asked if i wanna join sales.. i was so tempted to agree.. jac say it seems like promotion to her.. however, it means doom to mi coz if i agree and i cant perform, there is no way i can convert back to admin side.. hmmm.. most ppl ask mi to consider again coz its a gd chance for mi to learn mre and to earn mre.. :)

well, wil b back to blog again if i can tink of interesting topics.. my brain arent functioning well now :(

11:54 AM

locking my blog for certain reason.. shall be back to blog bout it tomolo.. not in mood to blog bout it now!

5:40 PM

came across this webby juz now.. decided to venture in n try out for fun nia.. here's the result..

I am Aquarius, My Lover is Scorpio

This is not an easy match at all -- you are so fundamentally different. Aquarius have lots of friends but use a light touch with all relationships and need plenty of space. Scorpios need privacy and have a few friends with whom they share intense emotional loyalty and devotion. You two come at life from different directions. Aquarius says to Scorpio, "Why do you need to get inside my head so deeply?" You need some detachment, because you feel safer that way. To get too close is to get dependent, or to lose some of your sense of self. Scorpio says to Aquarius, "Why can't you let down your guard? Why can't you get in touch with your deepest emotions and allow yourself to be vulnerable with me?" You probably fell in love with Scorpio's mystery and their incredible emotional depth (even if you can't begin to match it).

Scorpio lights up your solar house of fame, so your Scorpio lover will be very good for your career; they have shrewd advice for you, since they are highly instinctive. Because they are so smart financially, they can give you solid advice in these matters, too. When you are going into any kind of negotiation, ask your Scorpio for help; here again, they know exactly what to do. If you fell in love with your agent, manager, or other advisor who helped you become successful, he or she might be a Scorpio. Marriage is different, however, for you must both be able to reach the same emotional base.

Sexually, Scorpio will want to experience the kind of passion operas are written about, but you aren't always sure you can scale those Wagnerian heights. It may seem like so much work that you get bewildered by Scorpio's expectations. Scorpio could find you too cool and detached, or worse, discover you're thinking about other things right when he or she wants you to be focused on lovemaking! Scorpios are also quite possessive and sometimes jealous, and you've got plenty of friends of both sexes. As long as your Scorpio doesn't feel threatened, this should be okay with them.

I have seen incompatible signs link up beautifully, as long as both parties are aware of what the other expects and needs. Ask your partner what he or she wants most, and listen closely. This is one relationship you are going to have to work hard at.

** extracted from http://www.astrologyzone.com/lifelove/matchmaker/**

kind of true la.. mayb u readers wil like to have a go.. but pls... remember this.. horoscope arent accurate everytime ok? :)

12:47 PM

bb asked ytd if is there any problem with the both of us.. finally he start to tink.. hmmm.. at times, we seem so far apart and til now he realised it..

talk to him bout many things.. like my restrictions and my freedom.. he also told mi bout his concerns.. and i told him bout him leaving mi after his army life.. bring up to him that we r both together bcoz we r too used to each other.. but he juz kept quiet bout it and told mi he is 85% sure he wont.. so where does the 15% go? it doesnt seem logical to mi.. i tink he agrees with mi too.. hmmm~

after that, i went out to k with irene.. actually gona k with xiaolong n jinhong nia.. den suddenly when we reached, therer 3 mre pax there whom i arent so familiar with.. den i decide to get another room despite xiaolong's kp-inig.. but bcoz he lie ma.. say book package for all le.. ma de.. can check with receptionist one lo.. he book package for 5 pax n below.. but total wil have 7 pax le.. 7 pax with 2 mikes for 4 hours!! where got enuff la..

in e end, i book a room la.. ard 12, jinhong came over!! lol.. he mentioned it was fun at our side.. shd have came over earlier!! haha.. didnt understand lo.. our side 2 pax nia.. there side shd b fun ma.. lol.. asked him to sing.. he sang wu ke qun's "handicap"..

is super nice alright? den his fren keep wanting sing duet la.. lol.. sang with him.. jinhong say i "chu gui"!! lol.. i also sang with jinhong la.. his singing is nice la.. so i decide to "puo jie" sing ni zhui zhen gui with him!! lol.. *tis song after singing with silly boy, tis song has become a "zhen chang pin".. nvr sing with ppl anymre~gues its also a way for mi to rem him ba!! *

ended at 2 plus.. cabbed home.. slept at 3 plus.. anyway, in e near future, i wil b at "Rowell Pub" every sat n sunday! wil b "working" there!! lol.. nothin is confirm though.. they wan mi go over everyday la.. but its tiring though they offer fetch mi from office to there la.. lol.. back to blog soon!

9:30 AM

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