i tink i m mad..
feeling happy at one moment and moody e next..
at times, just wanna hide in a dark corner..
feel like off-ing my phone so that no one is able to find mi..
however, i noe tis is not possible as i noe i will make those who couldnt get mi worried..

life is so contradicting isnt it?
i noe life is like dat..
i noe i got to change myself to suit the environment..
i noe i have gt no choice but to do wat i have to do now..

but.......
i just dont like it..
i know i have changed..
i m no longer that "judy" i m 4 yrs ago..

in actual fact, i hate the current me, current life and everythin the evolve ard mi..
i hate the "me" who is so indecisive..
i hate the "me" who is so contradicting..
i hate the "me" who is so soft hearted..
i hate the "me" who is so weak..
i seriously hate everythin abt mi now..

some ppl ard mi just cannot make life easy for mi..
i just dont understand y that can just act like one and change face e other moment..
i dont understand y do i have to do such a thing whereby i hate it when it happens to my family before..
i just tink i m losing myself and i m lost..

i just dont like to go home anymore..
no matter its my own home or his home..
i just hate e feel of being alone in a room and with ppl naggin outside bout those untrue things..
trust mi.. one day shd i burst, i wont give face no matter who u r..
TRUST MI!!!!

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