feeling so sick n emo today.. lol.. everythin seems so wrong today...

early morning late for work.. reached office like 8.15am and was raining..

then was doing gebiz when adrian called and asked mi do urgent quote.. then ivn came over and asked mi n jac over to mary's table for a short meeting.. further details i wont wan to blog bout it coz i tink its so bloody lame.. i duno if is it that my frequence is different from others or wat.. lame~

sidetrack abit..

i seriously tink i cant tolerate ppl who love acting.. i m beginning to hate ppl with "2 faces".. seen too many of these faces since last week.. the feeling sucks though.. at times, i dont understand y is it so that ppl can juz simply ignore their heart and mind and starts to act out like another person or pattern.. kind of scary eh? but i noe tis is life.. when i grow older n older, i realised that nothin in this world is perfect and all gd things in this world wil come to an end.. and lotsa ppl wil start coming into ur life and leavin ur life as fast as how they came in.. kind of sad eh? i guess so too.. i admit i do act too.. like how i treat customers when they r lame.. i wil juz smile n laugh with them and nxt min when i turn my head my face goes straight again..

kind of pathetic eh.. duno whether is it that i in entertaining line long enough for mi to pick up this bad habit.. ytd was so lame when a staff from mediacorp came n drank in Rowell.. then he start joking ard with mi.. didnt feel reali confortable coz i wasnt in the best mood last night due to rushing here n there, this and that.. then when his fren start getting crappy, it gets on my nerve that when i m at their table, i was like smiling n smiling at them coz they r crapping.. nxt min when i turn my back, the smile vanish.. i tink W noticed it and asked if is there anythin wrong~

to tink of it, it has been like 2 yrs when i haven reali have a gd n long laugh.. not those laugh for less than 2 sec one la.. is those LOL!! and i tink it has been like 3 yrs i haven had a gd cry also.. at times feel that i m a wax figure with no expressions!! its so dreadful..

hope that i can get those "emos" back soon and say gd bye to grouchy face~
shall blog again when i feel like it.. kind of stress out now!!

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