was so tired last night that when i reach home, i jitao concuss til today morning 6am.. LOL.. so long nvr slp til so shiok liao!

feeling so fresh today! but as the time come nearer for mi to come work, i jitao mre n mre no mood.. anyway, ytd was a happy day for mi la.. lol..

reached work place at 7.45.. after 4 mths.. tis e first time i come work after so long.. actually i reach home 6 plus la.. coz slept at pub!! lol.. rain too big.. cant go home.. then was at there talking with "W" and finally at 4 plus 5 then concuss on the pool table..

yeh.. POOL table.. was too tired to care bout image anyway.. anyway, reach home change le came work immediately as W was downstairs waiting la.. i tink he also super tired le.. when i come down, he was sleepin in the car! lol.. on the way to work was silence in the car and no one speak though.. except for mi passing him a sweet la.. scare he fall aslp and there goes my life!

lotsa questions came popping by in my mind.. v puzzled and didnt noe the ans to it.. its those "what if " questions.. lol..

what if one day, u fall in love with a married man?
what if one day, u caught ur bf or hubby having an affair outside?
what if one day, u got preg and the father of the child already got kids?
what if one day, there arent anyone who bothers bout u?
what if one day, everyone ard u has changed?

so many what if.. lol.. i also dont understand y all these questions came into my mind.. i tink bcoz i saw too many couples breaking up and too many married couples divorce.. its kind of disheartening lo.. but i noe yuan fen yi jin.. no point dwelling la.. at tis point, i suddenly have the urge not to get married!

i told my mum a few mths back.. if i reach 30 and haven get married, i wil juz get any guy to make mi pregnant.. then i wil b a single mummy.. then she wil have grandson.. i tink i can support a child la.. duno whether tis mentality wil change when i get older anot.. hmmm.. i m wondering~

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